Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Immigration, community and the end of my year in San Antonio


A lot has happened since I began my YAV year of service in San Antonio, but there also has been so much love and support in my life this year. Now as my YAV year is about to end I am going to do one last very long post about my YAV year. One thing I have been able to really discover and understand this year is my desire and passion to serve cross-culturally, working with youth in education, and working with the church in community setting to relieve poverty and build relationships with other people. Living and working in San Antonio has shown me that these are some of my greatest gifts and they give me such fulfillment in life. I know in the future that God will provide many opportunities to share these gifts and passions with communities in U.S. and around the world.

While there have been many highs this year, but there has also been challenges. One struggle was understanding how I can best serve people as a Young Adult Volunteer (YAV) or missionary of the Presbyterian Church. I have found and confirmed this year that I want to work more in cross-culturally community focused settings and with kids. I discovered this as a result of my involvement at Divine Redeemer Presbyterian and working with refugees at Catholic Charities. Both have been eye opening and amazing experiences of how the church can play such a fundamental role in the life and bettering of a community. I also have discovered how I enjoy working and building relationships cross-culturally with refugees, but the difficult issues of poverty, language and culture that they face in the U.S. Thanks to my experiences in Catholic Charities I also found that one of the best ways I can serve in a community focused setting cross-culturally is working with kids in education. I found that I love to teach kids whether it be science, math or English, and this work has been one of the highlights of my year.

While working this year at an after-school program with low-income youth has been the most challenging work I have had because of serious behavioral issues caused by many complex factors, it is also has been some of my most rewarding work as I have built relationships with kids and influenced them and their education through these relationships. In many ways my volunteer work started as a struggle as I had to figure out what passions and skills I could offer to people and communities in San Antonio, but now that I have learned about the San Antonio community and how to apply my skills and passions it has been extremely rewarding to use them to positively impact refugees and the Westside community. It is through the opportunities to work cross-culturally and build relationships through teaching science that I now see myself serving others to address social issues like poverty. I have realized that through good education I can provide communities and youth the skills and passions to better their lives and prepare them to positively affect their communities.  

The one thing that has always been the foundation for me in San Antonio this year is my church Devine Redeemer. Their consistent support and strong community has been a blessing for my integration into San Antonio and Mexican culture and enabling me to build beautiful relationships cross-culturally. It has been the foundation for so many other people as a sense of hope, belonging and place that cares for vulnerable populations. It has shown me the great impact that a church can have to care for individuals and communities. It has strengthened my faith and belief of the great potential of the church, and how God, church and Christian community is the source and foundation of my desire, ability and work to serve others. I hope to continue to partner with churches and other faith organizations to show God’s love for people and address issues of injustice and poverty.

This past week I was also fortunate to go on a border delegation and immersion program through Borderlinks and the Presbyterian ministry of Frontera de Cristo. This experience was truly eye-opening as I gained first hand experience of issues on the border, work being done to address these issues and strong communities in the amidst of difficult circumstances. It began with looking at issues along the U.S. side as heard from dreamers and families who have been separated as a result of immigration. Hearing though their personal stories and witnessing some of the fear, pain and hurt that people are suffering as their families are split apart gave me a much better perspective on the realities and hardships that undocumented immigrant families are now facing in Arizona. However, once again I saw how the church can work with other individuals and organizations to serve people and live out the love of God as Presbyterian Churches in Tuscon were working to keep families together who had a parent being deported. I also meet Dreamers in Arizona who have been improving themselves with education and supporting others who want gain a college education. Witnessing these things gave me a strong appreciation for just the many blessing I have such as a good education in the U.S. and grow up in a loving family that was always together.

After that then we headed towards Mexico where we spent a couple of nights in Agua Prieta, Sonora, Mexico and then a few extra nights unintentionally in Douglass, AZ. The bi-national ministry called Frontera de Cristo between the Presbyterian Church of U.S. and Mexico lead and educated us on border issues while we were there. Just some background on these communities is that the only things that separate Douglass, AZ from Agua Prieta, Sonora is the large fence on the U.S.’s side. You could also say Douglass is wealthier, but Agua Prieta has significantly more amount of people. However, it is very apparent there is a close connection between the two communities and they share many similarities. While this area of the border is significantly calmer than other border cities because of its smaller size the two communities have to deal with difficult issues like a constant flow of drugs and immigrants coming through their communities and limited job opportunities.

The first night we were there Frontera de Cristo took us to a shelter for people who had just been deported to Mexico. Like many places we went, we heard many stories of crushed dreams of having a better life in the United States or finding themselves separated from their families. Many of these stories were of course difficult to hear, and most felt they were treated fairly by the U.S. government, but they still had dreams of going to the United States for a better life. Just a side note that most of the residents at the shelter I meet came from southern states in Mexico which tend to be the poorest and most indigenous states of Mexico. Being at the shelter though also began my experience of learning about immigration to the United States from the Mexican perspective, and thus gaining a better perspective on immigration.

The shelter provided them food and a place to sleep, and also advice from social workers of the next steps they could choose. They allowed them to contact their families to tell them that they were safe, healthy and alive. They also gave them advice on what the next steps they could take: look for a job around Agua Prieta, go back to their home or go to another city in Mexico. What was never their advice, was to try and cross the border again. I was actually a little bit surprised by this at first since that was their dream, but as the social worker began to explain it more it became obviously more apparent of why he was saying that.

Crossing the border is a very dangerous thing, not because the border patrol (they are people’s really only chance of survival when they become lost in the desert), but largely because of U.S. policy, thieves and horrible misinformation from smugglers on the Mexican side. Many immigrants who come up from more southern regions in Mexico and Central America have no idea of the realities of crossing the border in Arizona and Sonora. It was very apparent when we were driving through this region that the conditions in the desert on the Sonora and Arizona border are very harsh. It is hot, there is no water, tons of rattlesnakes and pretty much every plant has sharp thorns on it making them impossible to pass. That is not even the worst part as there are cartels and thieves on the migrant trails who require them to pay them money or they will steal their money. Then there are the smugglers who tell them to run from border patrol in the U.S., which are the only people who can actually save them in the desert. Because of these harsh realities, U.S. government does not heavily patrol these areas because they see desert as a barrier to crossing the border. Because there is less border patrol in these areas this is where most people cross because there is a less chance that they will be caught by border patrol. A combination of those factors though results in the high number of people dying on the border. Since the U.S. border patrol began counting from the year 2000 over 2,666 people have been found dead just on the Arizona border (that doesn’t include the high number of deaths that also occur on the Texas border where more immigrants from Central America cross). As of result of the high risks of crossing the border social workers at the shelter do whatever they can to discourage people from crossing the border. Unfortunately, for many people they still have dreams of gaining a better life in U.S., and so if they insist they tell them to bring lots of water, matches in case they get lost and to not run from the border patrol so they don’t get lost in the dessert.  However, it was not until the next day that I realized what is being done in both Agua Prieta and Douglass to address the true root causes of immigration.  

After being orientated more towards the two communities and the border we went to a multiple business, organizations and maquiladoras (factories) that were improving the life in Agua Prieta. What I was surprised most by was the powerful impact of business. I will fully admit that I have not always viewed the business world positively. But what I saw in Agua Prieta is that business can have a very large impact in relieving poverty and providing better incomes for people. Speaking with amazing leaders who had started successful and growing companies like a feather factory and a fair trade coffee, I saw the positive impact of these businesses as they provided farmers in Chiapas and people in Agua Prieta with stable and better wages. I now feel I have a better appreciation for the work that business can do for communities, and I also have a better appreciation for the work that good businesses do in the U.S., and the need to have more positive business in both improvised areas in Mexico, U.S. and around the world that improve the economy and work wages of these communities. While of course there are many other factors like strong healthcare and education that positively impact impoverished areas, I now see improving business as a way people can powerfully impact these communities.

As we continued exploring hard issues of poverty, drug abuse and immigration, the thing that most amazed me in Agua Prieta was the strong sense of community that people involved with Frontera de Cristo, other partner organizations and the church of El Lirio de los Valles had despite these difficult circumstances. While of course many of the individuals we meet were concerned with addressing social justice issues they also had another great purpose in creating a strong community throughout Agua Prieta. I felt very fortunate that so many people in Agua Prieta included us in this community by hosting us for dinner, and I think from my work in San Antonio and observing life in Agua Prieta that a focus of any type business, organization and religious group needs to be building a strong community and trying to spread that sense of community to other places. As I have worked with refugees in Burma, and been able to form strong relationships with many Rohingya Burmese Muslims. I have seen that one of their biggest needs in the U.S. is just having a sense of community. I truly believe that for most people God intended us to live in community, and to work to spread a sense of community to others. Many of my Rohingya brothers have taught me this lesson, and the hospitality and gratefulness towards me has been one of the most rewarding experiences I have experienced in San Antonio. Not only have I been able to understand new cultures, try new foods and make new friends in San Antonio, but I think I have a better understanding of what it means to be a human being and love people who are different than you. I think it is this sense of community and the beauty of forming relationships between cultures, languages, religions and socio-economic status that I found in working with immigrant groups in the United States and observed in Mexico that gives me the most fulfillment and where God is directed me to work.

Anyways, it was also finding this sense of community in Agua Prieta where there was a lot of pain and suffering that impacted me the most while I was there. We also did many other things in Agua Prieta from what I have talked about, and I would encourage anyone who gets the chance to do an experience like this. And while I would like people to consider how issues of immigration and poverty are affecting individuals and families in both the U.S. and Mexico, I think the most important thing is that we focus on building a stronger sense of community between our families, friends and people who are also different than us. I also think that immigration issues are weakening communities and our sense of community in both the U.S. and Latin America. This was very apparent to me in my experience in Arizona as families are being split up and in Mexico as the immigration of many males to the United States has resulted in many children growing up without fathers in their lives. 

The last thing I want to say is that I want to thank everybody who I have meet in San Antonio who created such an enriching experience for me and taught me so much. Then I want to thank all the people who supported me over this year from back home in Washington. I feel I am leaving San Antonio having a better sense of who I am, what it means to show God’s love and how I want to apply that in the future through educating youth and community based work using God and the church as the foundation of my work. I now have the difficult of decision of continuing my work with the Presbyterian Church for another year in Agua Prieta or going to get my masters in teaching so I impact kids, build stronger communities and improve education through poverty and cross-cultural contexts. Either way I know that God will take care of me, and will continue opening doors for me to use my passions and skills to serve him.

“The most terrible poverty is loneliness and the feeling of being unloved.”

Mother Teresa

Monday, March 10, 2014

Life in Lymbo

So I know I have not written in my blog in awhile. Being busy could be one of those factors, but either way I still should of written sooner. This year I have gained a lot of various experiences in my life, profession and service. I have seen things about this world that fulfills me and brings true joy to my heart and seen things that make me feel quite the opposite (frustrated, saddened, lonely and confused). There have been very few situations and decisions that have been black and white and have been carried out based on what I think is right and on my time. While there are some things that are more clear to me from my YAV year in SA like the importance having community, faith, diversity, caring for people and loving God and your neighbor. But, even these core things that I find as very important can look very different and are carried out very differently by people, and how I know how to carry out those core concepts is various situations is not always clear and well defined. In fact I have realized that finding out how to best serve and care for people is really a process and being open to people, yourself, your environment and direction from God. Many times it takes longer than we want and it takes a lot of patience and trusting God to get where we want to be. I think because of this long process I have found that I need to pay more attention to not in the direction of where I am going always, but the adventure and process of going there. Many times our direction will change from what we thought we wanted, and what was important at one time may no longer carry that same weight. I find this particularly important because for one we all share the same final destination in this life (dying), so you better enjoy the process of eventually dying because that is all you probably have in this world depending on what you live. Second, when you finally arrive to some destination or point in your life (not like there seems to be clear destinations that we arrive to in this life) then what we bring to that destination is only the process of getting to that destination. If I tried to get there as fast as I can, I am not going to have much to offer people because I did not learn much in the process of getting there fast and I was only focusing on the destination. While there are sometimes that we need to get to a destination fast, I think we have to be very careful of that at the same time because we will probably miss out on certain things by doing that. Plus, you probably will not have as many great relationships and experiences with people (the thing that really seems to matter in this life and makes a large impact on people's life) because you were more concerned with your destination.

I think a large part of this year I have learned a lot more about this, and I have learned a lot about myself and how I want to serve. Currently, my destination is kinda of up in the air as I do not know exactly where I will end up next year- medical school, teaching or perhaps something else. Whatever happens though I know that as I long as I am true to myself and my faith that I will have an amazing life journey. I have found that my fulfillment does not come from my job title, but what I am doing in my job and the people that I impact and impact me. So now that I currently do not know my destination, I think that is alright because I am on a journey in this life. And right now the journey I am on in San Antonio is more fulfilling and life-changing than any journey I could of wished for.             

Monday, December 2, 2013

Thanksgiving and all the blessings that I have had in San Antonio

I apologize that I have not been writing recently, but filling out medical school applications made me tired of writing there for awhile. But anyways this was only the second time that I had spent thanksgiving away from family (the only other time was when I was in Spain). But even so I had a great time and many things to be thankful for in San Antonio.

I think though the greatest thing I am thankful for is my community here in San Antonio. Whether it be the community I have at my church, with my roommates, in the Westside of San Antonio and at work. In fact if I was to use two words that would describe my time here in San Antonio and for the city it is good community. I mean without good community I think I would feel lost is this world no matter where I am because I believe living in community is an essential for all humans. It is how we were designed to live. I think there have been plenty of times here in San Antonio where I have missed Washington, family and old friends; frustrated with systems of injustice; and questioning why I have to do some of the stuff that nobody else wants to do at work if I am not even being payed to do it. It is those moments or days though that my community inserts life back into me, purpose and happiness into my time here at San Antonio. My community helps me see the positives and true meaning of life (connection to people, your environment, God and other spiritual or religious beliefs people have).

This thanksgiving break it was particularly special because I was able to experience community with people from my church community and many complete strangers. I am so thankful for the sense of community that Divine Redeemer has provided me and the invitations people give me to come to their homes, be a part of their community and share with me about their lives, culture and language. And this it seems whether I am with my roommates, at work or wherever in San Antonio I have found this sense of community everywhere in San Antonio.

That is all I want to say, but I also want to give thanks for the great family, friends and church communities who have supported me over the years. Without you guys I would not be here. So now that my medical school apps are all done I will make a great effort to update this blog. But as for right now I am going to keep looking for ways that I can create community with people wherever I am and include the marginalized and those whose are looking for it most.           

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Going in the wrong direction

Hey sorry I have not been more up on posting for my blog, but it has not been because of a lack of wanting to write. I am trying to fill out medical school applications so that has been using up all my writing and free time unfortunately. But I do have plenty to talk about, still no pictures as I cannot connect my camera with my computer.

Well I can say after spending around a month in San Antonio and the westside community I have enjoyed myself, despite a few bad experiences here that are really more funny experiences. Well, I will start off with just talking about where I live. I live in the westside of San Antonio, which is almost an all latino neighborhood. While I cannot say by any means I blend in here, I can say people have been very welcoming, despite the stray dog and flea attacks. Plus, there is great tex-mex in the area, but not very healthy so you have to limit yourself. Fortunately, we live right by a grocery store called HEB, which is like the grocery store of Texas, and it is super cheap so we can afford fresh fruit and vegetables.

Though, while I am finally getting more use to life in San Antonio, the first two weeks I felt in some ways I was always going in the wrong direction literally. Whether it was from the stray dogs chasing me on my bike or when I am running, or when I was trying to figure out the bus system. Sometimes, I just felt that I could not be where I was suppose to be, whatever that meant. Though, I think what I have learned already and what I think God is trying to teach me over and over again, is that it is okay to be going in a direction that you might of not intended to take because that could lead to other opportunities, great conversations and finding good people in this world who are willing to help you. I think the people here in San Antonio is why I have enjoyed this place, people have been more than willing to help me when I am going the wrong direction or felt lost. Sometimes, they point me back to right direction, while other times they just make me feel like I am no longer lost, even it was my intention not be there.

I think this has been important for me to realize in my job placement. Many times I have been unsure of what to do to help people or make myself feel useful. I think I wanted to do something so I could be really impacting lives and feel lots of fulfillment about it. However, I have had to realize that one I am just a volunteer and that the work I may be doing may not always feel important. Second, I always have to open to having people help me, before I can help people. While this process has gone slower than I want it to go, and I thought as a volunteer I would be more on giving side than the receiving side. This has not been the case though, and I feel this has been an important lesson to learn. However, now that I know the way things work at the psychiatric clinic I am volunteering in, I feel I have been able to help them and patients out more. But I think I first needed and always need to be open to having people help me.

Just a side not though there were some mix ups with my stipend and as a result of all there was a bit of confusion. The end result though is that I will  volunteer two days at the community psychiatric clinic and two days with refugees helping with ESL classes and casework. I think I will get a rich experience both in medicine and working with different cultures, and I know I have much more to learn this year. So I am sure I will have many more experiences this year and in the future to share about my placements.

Lastly, I just wanted to talk more about Divine Redeemer (my church and I will call it DR also) and DOOR (my PCUSA program) community here in san antonio. They have been so helpful in my transition into San Antonio. Whether it be Spanish classes, inviting me over to dinner or just wanting to hang out. Either way I have felt very welcomed by these communities. At DR I have been going to the Spanish service and even a Spanish bible study. Everybody has been so accepting of me, despite my many Spanish errors that I cannot but help make. Plus, it has been a really awesome experience worshiping God in another language and in the latino culture.

But, I think that is all for now, and now I am gonna go back to writing more med school apps  and exploring SA so I have more to talk about for the next time. Also, do not ever let stray dogs live under your porch, they attract fleas that then will invade your yard and bite people too. This did not occur at our house, but at one of the houses that belonged to the church. Even more importantly, please spray and neuter your dogs and cats. That is my public health advice of the day.  

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

While I am still very unfamiliar about blogging I will apologize ahead of time for my amateur blogging. I am officially in San Antonio enjoying what you could say is the honeymoon stage of living in a new area. Everything is so new and unique to me already in San Antonio, and all I have been really doing is enjoying life and learning about the city. I especially am enjoying the Westside of San Antonio, and the unique culture and people that live around here. But before I arrived in San Antonio I spent the week at Stony Point, NY doing a YAV (young adult volunteer) training for this year, meeting the great community of current YAVS (that would be me) and YAV alumni and living at one of the most coolest, organic (they grew about over half of what they served in their massive organic gardens and it was very tasty) and beautiful camp I have ever seen. While the training meetings were a little bit long, they were helpful to prepare me a little bit this year. But the best part was the community, I meet so many awesome young adults there, and it was good to know that I have an awesome YAV community to support me along with my friends, family and church. It was both a sad and exciting day to depart from everyone as I had to leave people I had built up close relationships with, but it was very excited to go to San Antonio. Hopefully, I will be able to return to Stony Point and actually see New York City along with all the beautiful people I have meet there.

Anyways, as a finally reached my destination two days ago in west san antonio, I knew that I would be a place that would making me go out of my comfort zone. West San Antonio is almost all Hispanic and low-income, and the influences of Mexican culture is everywhere. But at the same time this area is very unique and it seems to have its own version of latino culture unique to only San Antonio. I can also say as tall white kid in this neighborhood that I do stick out a little bit. At the same time though I have found that people in West San Antonio are extremely friendly and welcoming. Especially at Divine Redeemer Presbyterian Church, which is one of the most community involved churches I have ever seen. I am very excited to become a part of this church in the future. I also live with a great community Julius and Ashely (local west SA natives), Merideth (Georgia native) and Maggie (north Carolina native). They are all really unique people that will add many things to this unique intentional community that we will live in. Then there is Danielle our DOOR/YAV site coordinator who is really chill and awesome and is showing us all the cool places in the westside and around san Antonio along with much input from Ashely and Julius. Right now my typical day is just exploring the city, getting to know my roomates, taking spanish lessons from Ariana (nuestra profresora de espanol) and meeting our work placements and people in the church. I will very likely be expanding on those more as the year continues, but for now I will leave it at that. On Friday I will be meeting my site placement director Dr. Cervando Martinez to hear more about what I will be doing in the clinic, but I am very excited from what I have seen already. Overall, I am very blessed by the people around me and the people that have helped me come here like family and friends. I am also very glad that this is where God has brought me for the year, and I am praying that I would be open to the many opportunities he presents. Anyways that is about it for now, but I will be hopefully posting pics and more detailed messages in the future.